I feel like crap. AUGH

FUCK YES. *NOMNOMNOMNOM*

Well. Okay. You did not see me though. I dun do that.

My Spam-Alert Sensors are going off. Begone.

Okay, it’s raining. I’m bored. TIME TO WATCH CRY PLAY VIDEO GAMES GODDAMMIT! FOR NARNIA!

[5:51:34 PM] ****: whats he done now?
[5:52:37 PM] Me: Nothing. Thats exactly the point.
[5:52:41 PM] Me: He’s done nothing.
[5:53:00 PM] ****: im confused
[5:54:09 PM] Me: Nothing= Won’t talk to me. Acts like I don’t exist
[5:54:26 PM] Me: Even his cousin that likes me won’t talk to me anymore.
[5:54:44 PM] ****: ah im sorry
[5:54:59 PM] Me: *bangs head on desk* FUCK
[5:55:00 PM] Me: FUCK
[5:55:02 PM] Me: FUCK
[5:55:08 PM] Me: MY LIFE
[5:55:48 PM] ****: aww i am so sorry
[5:58:51 PM] Me: Everytime my phone rings I get excited
[5:59:11 PM] Me: Because I think that maybe it could be him
[5:59:29 PM] ****: aww
[6:00:54 PM] Me: And when it isn’t, do you have any idea how bad that feels?
[6:01:07 PM] Me: I feel like, telling him how I felt messed everything up.
[6:01:11 PM] Me: Like it’s my fault
[6:01:23 PM] Me: Like I did something wrong.
[6:01:36 PM] ****: you havent done anything wrong
[6:01:45 PM] ****: its him whos at fault for ignoring you
[6:02:57 PM] Me: But. Everything was fine before. We talked every damn day. Now it seems like I don’t even exist to him anymore.
[6:03:09 PM] Me: I told myself I would never let a guy ruin my life.
[6:04:24 PM] ****: dont think that, you will find someone who loves you
[6:04:59 PM] ****: and in that you will fall head over heels for him, look at *****, she didnt think another guy would enter her life
and she had given up, but then ****** showed up
[6:05:15 PM] ****: dont let things like this put you down, you will find someone
[6:05:16 PM] ****: trust me

For the first time in about 2 months I am happy. Well kinda. Tonight I went skating with my friends, Brittany, Tabbitha, Trey, Hagan, Benny, Sammy, Chey, other Chey, other other Chey, Lexxi, Chance, and Madison. And so, Britt and Chey1 ended up crying and it’s a long story why. And Trey cussed me out because he likes me and I don’t like him back. And then he texted me later begging me to be with him and I told him no. I came up with awesome excuses. But then Benny texted me, and I like him. And he asked me who I like. And I got brave and told him I like him and he said he likes me too, we aren’t dating though, still kinda awkward.

Why is everything apparently my fault? Let’s see, just this week. My ex broke my heart again, as if he hadn’t done a good enough job the first time. My friend Tear’s cousin Josh made me cry by saying I would ruin his reputation by talking to him. (I don’t even understand) I’m tired of being made fun of at school, my teachers hate me for no reason. Most of my friends won’t talk to me anymore and I don’t know why. The only good thing that has happened this week and/or will happen is that, two guys I kind of like called me beautiful, and one said I was “fucking awesome” and on Friday night I get to go skate my worries away and be my age with my friends who still love me for who I am, not who they wish I was. I can’t change for other people and I don’t want to. I am me, limited edition, one of a kind. Trying to change me will just backfire and hurt you in the end. I feel like an emotional little fuck, complaining to my online friends about my shitty life. But when you’ve been crying into a fucking bath towel for the past 2-3 hours, you need some release and some venting to do. AND I SWEAR TO GOD IF ANYONE TRIES TO COMFORT ME LIKE THEY DID LAST TIME I POSTED SOMETHING LIKE THIS I WILL BREAK A WINDOW AND EAT THE GLASS!!

aaeternum-vale:

This made me cry. This is so sickkk. Reblog if your against child abuse.

Oh my god. I don’t even really like kids that much but this made me wanna jump in the screen and pick up the kid and shoot the woman and run away.

I have followed 30 blogs and I only have 8 followers. That’s just rude guys.